"And that is what sin is, at heart. Sin is my refusal to deal with reality — specifically, with the game-changing reality of God. Sin is my insistence on being self-defining (as if there were no God), self-ruling (as if there were no God), self-pleasing (as if there were no God). In fact, sin is living as if there were no God. It makes me the opposite of the real Jesus Christ; it makes me an anti-christ."
Pulled this out from a blog. I struggled though this life and get discouraged quite a lot. A good part of me wants to deny the reality of God and have some momentary pleasure of sin. I need to return to the reality of God in my life.