Monday, September 26, 2011

Prayer: Whats it all about.

Philippians 4:6
do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God

In my current frame of mind... pleading with God and struggling with disappointment and discouragement when God does not answer. My emotions are all over the place.

I am not getting it. Nothing new there.
I pray.. ask.. and petition for others mainly and some for myself. I weep..the pain runs deep.

I pray.. not for money but changed hearts (mine included). I pray that God would meet the need of the people he has put in my life. I pray for lost souls. I pray for the desires of my heart. I am discouraged. I need a real relationship in my life. One with my maker. Where O Lord are you hiding?

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

High Places

Stunned by 2 Kings 17 today...
They also feared the LORD and appointed from among themselves all sorts of people as priests of the high places, who sacrificed for them in the shrines of the high places. 33So they feared the LORD but also served their own gods, after the manner of the nations from among whom they had been carried away.


Sunday, March 6, 2011

Canceling the Record of Debt

I am going through Colossians these days. I wrote the following to a friend.


13And you, who were dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, God made alive together with him, having forgiven us all our trespasses, 14by canceling the record of debt that stood against us with its legal demands. This he set aside, nailing it to the cross.

It got me thinking of what I would do if someone paid all my debts off including the house, cards, loans, taxes, everything even the collection account . I would be praising God and asking this guy to marry me.. (too much about guys I know). Immediately, I would be free from monthly obligations.
What would I do? I get a pretty decent pay check.. How would I spend it now? On myself alone?, retirement, save it, a bigger house, new car, plastic surgery...
What... would I do.. go into more debt? It would cheapen his gift.

Would I give generously.. because of what someone I love did for me? Would I give half my check? all of it? Live simply so I could give more away?: How would I respond to this.. someone bought me out from the slavery of debt and set me free,. I want to be a generous giver.. not there yet. Will God answer this prayer. (generous And Faithful in my giving?)

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Its about Him.

A friend gave me this devotional today. Wow..

"Jesus? Oh Yes, I remember Jesus, but right now I'm trying to figure out why my future seems so bleak and why my friends seem so unconcerned about my loneliness. I just don't see how his death and imminent return make much difference."
I read this an said how does this woman know my thoughts!.

"This day isn't about me at all. It's about him: his sinless life, death, resurrection, ascension and reign and the sure promise of return. Its the gravity of his life that should attract my thought towards him." E. Fitzpatrick

Its not about me.. even though I think about me all the time. It is His Life, death, resurrection, ascension and reign that matter!

Reading: Comforts from the Cross by Elyse Fitzpatrick

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

An Unremarkable Faith

An Unremarkable Faith

This blog was really encouraging me today. I think he has hit it on the nose.
Faithful: something to desire and strive for. Will I be faithful? I have this character trait of wanting to run away when the going gets tough: Change a church, change a job, seek new friends, strike out in anger, anything but faithful. Life is boring so do something stupid regardless of the consequences or seeking God in the manner. I have that down pat.

As I grow in grace, please Lord change me to something to reflect you and not me.